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Ok... so I haven't written anything for a year!! Not that I am great writer or anything, but just a fact :-)

So what has made me write this? Put simply, there has been so much going in my head for the past few months that I feel my head weighs a few tons. The best way to streamline things to write them down!! Also, a Friday afternoon 3.00pm is not the best time to start a new task in the big, bad (COMPLICATED?) world of virtualization. So the best way to spend time was to write this.

I want to start my own software company. Period! I don't know if I will ever be able to. I don't know if I am good enough and I don't know how many new problems it will bring in my life. But, I WANT TO DO IT. The first time I told this to people (some aquaintainces..., neither friends, nor relatives) their first reaction was to smile and politely say that it doesn't work that way. The way to go about setting up a company is to have an AWESOME idea first and then make it grow into a company ... NOT the other way round.

So the start hasn't been good :(

The other thing people asked me is "Are you sure you can do that?". The conversation basically boils down to the fact that my type of people (Brahmins, non-cunning, "Good Boy", straight-forward, etc.) are not at all suited to being CEO's or MD's or founders. They say that people catagorised as above are best suited for doing jobs... they abide by everything that the manager asks them to do, get the job done well and in time, take the salary and go home. Thats it. They are not really adventerous enough to setup something of their own because it involves risks. What about security? What about the bank balance? What about future prospects? What about the family? ... all these questions squash every single ambition (if any) they might have about starting a company of their own. Generations after generations keep doing the same things... and the same legend gets passed down. [So the next generation will do the same things and use the same reasons to justify them :) ].

But somewhere, somehow, I just don't find all these things convincing. Maybe its some inner voice saying I can do it or maybe its just the stupid "jawani ka josh". Whatever it may be, I feel defiant or rebellious or . I feel that if a person puts in a lot of effort, it should be possible to make things happen. Be it in your regular job or be it for your own company. I have seen some entrepreneurs(thanks dictionary.com !!) from reasonably close quarters and I know the kind of work they put in. Should it really be that difficult? I dream about how that objective to do something big would be the single biggest driving force for me. The day when there will be so much to do that 24 hours would seem horribly inadequated.

I'm sure everyone thinks about these things at some point in time. Its just that they are probably not lucky enough to go ahead and try it. Am I lucky enough to get that opportunity? Time will tell ...

In the meanwhile, I am off to search for "That" idea, that one defining moment when I would feel enlightened and sow that one seed which would grow into ...